I have such a heavy heart right now.
You think that after almost 14 years after my second divorce that I would finally have the healing and wholeness that God wants me to have. You would think that I would have changed and grown in every part of my life to the point that divorce and all the pain and hurt that comes from it could not or should not affect me any more.
Well,…………I was wrong!! 😦
God has brought me total and complete healing in virtually every part of my whole being. Actually to be honest, I AM completely healed from all that happened to me. But, God saw fit to leave a deposit behind in me. And I am not sure if I am up for the task.
I am sitting here in tears as I am trying everything I can to help a good friend and brother in Christ deal with all he is going through. I just want to give him a hug. One of those, “It gets better” or “I know because I have been there” kind of hugs. But I can’t.
I pray and pray and pray for God to reveal Himself to my friend and show him that he is loved, by the only One who IS love!!!
I ask God to give me the words to speak life to him. How can a mere mortal, as well-meaning and experienced as I am, compare to what he really needs? He needs a healed heart. A healed soul. Real hope.
What I just realized is that divorce has changed me forever.
God left me with a scarred heart. It is fully healed, but it shows the wounds and the proof of prior battles.
God left me with a tender heart. It is sensitive to the touch for those dealing with divorce. It hurts when they hurt; it bleeds when they bleed.
God has left me with a hopeful heart. It is praying that the only true hope called Jesus Christ can reach you, me, and all those needing hope.
God has left me with a joyful heart. It is thankful for all that He has done in my life; the healing that only God can give and the wholeness that lets me carry on for one more day, living a life of purpose.
God has left me with a heart…………for you.
Pray for my friend as I pray for all of you.