From Scott, in his own words.
Thank you, Scott!!!
Been reading your devotionals on YouVersion. No truer words than these…
This is the time you need to move on from destructive thoughts and behaviors. It is the time to move past accusations, pain, and fear.. It is time to move into a greater relationship with God and to move into all He still has for you.
The one thing God has pressed upon me since I found out about her affair and when she moved out, was simply this… I must forgive her for ME to heal. It was something I knew, above all else, that I HAD to do! It took me many prayers, screaming at God, crying out to Him, “God, I can’t do this! I know I need to, but I can’t. And truthfully, I don’t want to! But I know I need to. I need You to help me do this!”
Through this, He changed my heart. I was given the opportunity to forgive her face-to-face. I did. She ignored me, changed the subject. But I discovered that it wasn’t about her response… it was about mine. And by being obedient that day when He told me, “Do it now. Forgive her” I was set free of so much that was weighing me down.
But then, God taught me something new! He told me, as I quickly found out, that Forgiveness is NOT a one-and-done… it’s a daily process. I learned to stop saying simple prayers for her and start praying blessings over her! I struggled with this, but now pray for her job, car, increase, protection, and still most importantly, her healing and return to God. Even if it is not with me, I pray that I can see her healed and whole.
Thank you for being obedient to God in your ministry. Thank you for helping others like me. I have a friend going through a nasty divorce that I have asked to read your devotionals, as well. Thank you.
One thing I have continued to pray is that if I must go through this, that God would allow me to use it to help someone else. I never even imagined that I could do so before I got through this! But He has called me to reach out to a few people, and I’ve been able to strengthen and encourage them… not because of me or what I did, but because of what God has done in and through me.
I know this won’t be easy to get through, but I know that in forgiveness I have found peace… even though it still hurts.
I literally feel like an amputee sometimes, like I’m missing part of me. I mean I am actually. But through forgiveness (and prayer) come healing. You cannot have one without the other. God has been so amazing through this. Thank you again!